Speaker 1: 0:00

Hello there everybody. I'm Heidi and this is the Surviving Changes podcast, so we're getting ready to head out of the Wild West RV park, so I'm telling everybody goodbye. One of the things that I have done when I'm in Arizona is apply for an Obama phone and some food stamps Everything that I could that I was eligible for in the van with DoorDash. I'm trying to save money, remember, to go across the border. I don't know what's going to happen across the border. I also have a warrant out, remember, from Chris in California for auto theft. I end up beating those charges later, but at this point in time, I'm going across the Mexican border as a felon with a couple DoorDash dollars, and so I don't think I need my Obama phone and in fact, I think it's probably smarter for me to, because I know they're tracked to give it to one of those meth heads and let them track it up north of Phoenix instead of down south. So, as I'm leaving Maricopa, I my obama phone to one of the meth heads and I head down, um to yuma. So yuma is my next stopping point, and I don't remember how long I ended up staying in yuma, maybe probably a month or two. Um, I knew somebody there at first. They let me kind of stay in there. So this is when I realized about this Marjolins thing. And the first thing I did when I got there is tell her about this Marjolins thing. She's like okay, but I don't want you in my house, like awesome, awesome. So I lived in her driveway for a while as I'm trying to figure out what all that was. Now it turns out that the way that that Morgellons must be controlled I don't know there's a lot of theories on it, but my experience with it was it's probably something with energy electromagnetic probably and that's how it's controlled.

Speaker 1: 1:59

Because as soon as I got out of that area and I did dump, I left a lot of stuff there that might be infected with anything, uh, and kind of restarted in the van. I mean, it's not like it's a big deal. Um, I'm in the van with about nothing at this point, and the stuff that I do have that matters is, um, where the seats kind of went into the frame. I had taken them out. So there's a whole lot of stuff in there that I don't think has any problem with it. It hasn't been open for a long time, well, since it's been put there and then stuff on top of it. So that's where whatever memories and stuff evidence things like that that I still have is in there.

Speaker 1: 2:42

But so I go down to Yuma to try to reset and at this point I know that California I can't go into California and go down. I'm going to try Arizona and go down and there's a spot right there by Yuma that you can go down. There's also a women's shelter down there well, a shelter, and there's one side that's a woman's and one side that's a man's. And if you ever have any extra money and as soon as I do start doing a lot again, once we're at that point, I'm going to send these guys a lot of money. This lady gave me $20 to go across the border, but a lot of other things. I'm going to send her an anonymous check for $20,000 someday.

Speaker 1: 3:24

Those people are awesome and so, because I have paloochie, I couldn't um stay inside, right, but I could do doordash all day long. Um spend the night there, get breakfast there, get lunch there, get dinner there. Um use their showers uh, they had vouchers um for like they would give you um all the toothpaste and toothbrushes and stuff like that you need. And then um, the lady that runs it has these vouchers to go over to like their second hand store, and so she gave me vouchers that, um, I could get stuff for the ride down. These people were just awesome they were. So she gave me vouchers that, um, I could get stuff for the ride down. These people were just awesome, they were so good to me. Um, and what looked like on the outside right at this point in time looked like probably one of the worst times in my life was actually one of the.

Speaker 1: 4:19

I mean other than um, now, this point, I, you've got a lot of emotional stuff to go through. I'm angry, uh, never really sad. Um, I have not been sad about any of these fuckers. I've been angry at these fuckers, but I've never really been sad. Um, like you know, there's memories, certain dates and things like that. You might feel like something, but I'm more angry. So you know, I'm going through like emotions like that, but for the most part, I don't have to.

Speaker 1: 4:54

As long as I eat at the women's shelter, bathe at the women's shelter, use the Internet at the women's shelter, I only have to have a phone. My only bill is gas to DoorDash, um, and a phone, and so we would get up at our leisure, we would go have breakfast, I would shower, um, and you know, this was the only time, and this is also probably why it kind of looked like that. So there was a couple times when I was there that, um, I didn't have gas money to doordash, like you can't doordash if you don't have gas money. Now, the reason I was able to do those things, uh, back then without having a bank account, was because they gave you a little um debit card and as soon as you did a run, you could go to your debit card and take it out on any of the cash machines and, of course, they charge you, depending on the machine, but you could have your cash right there. So as long as you had enough gas for one run, you would be okay, right, but you have to have enough gas for one run, and there was a couple times I didn't, and so this was the only time ever that, um, I panhandled, and the first time was out of necessity and the second time was out of curiosity.

Speaker 1: 6:13

Um, I can see why, people, if you don't care about your pride at all and you don't mind looking god in the eye, um, and these people in eye. People will like come give you money for doing nothing, nothing at all. They will come give you money. Now, if they knew that I was door dashing and I just needed some gas, they were obviously much happier to help with that. Um, but that was not. It was not difficult at all.

Speaker 1: 6:42

You, you, um, get right down the road to anywhere, put out a little sign or just stand by something and say, hey, I'm trying to go door dash, can you? Um, sorry, can't do. Look, I'll even pay it back to you. I'm in the area at the women's shelter. Do you have ten dollars that I can borrow until the end of the day? And people are generally good. Strangers are good, strangers are good. The other people you've got to wonder about sometimes. But so the van was not uncomfortable. I had an air mattress in there. I even had a little um, one of the little misters with the scents and everything, my laptop. I could turn on um TV. Us TV now is a very cheap subscription. Um, you could use the wifi from the, from the. I mean, I was not.

Speaker 1: 7:46

I had literally no worries at all and because I wasn't on any timeline, I was just going to go across the border whenever it made sense. There was a lot of stuff happening at the border at that time, also a lot of chaos, and with the warrant I didn't really know. Now I knew I had to stop going across the whole pizza deal I think I talked about it on here. So the first time I went to Mexico was when I was in Imperial Beach. It was by accident. I was driving pizza for DoorDash and it had me skip the—it's only three exits down, and so I ended up in Tijuana. And so I knew that you could drive across in certain areas without having to stop. But I couldn't go to California to get over to Tijuana to get to that, and I didn't know if anything had changed since then. Right, so I wanted to be prepared for any single thing that could happen if I was going across the border.

Speaker 1: 8:43

So I had to get Pellucci all his vaccines, his papers to go across the border car insurance you have to have the across the border car insurance. You have to have the right kind of car insurance, mexico insurance, all of that stuff. So that's the stuff that I did while I was down in Yuma, and Mark helped me with that quite a bit too, and the people at the women's shelter. So, and there were some nice people I met there as well. But so there's a train track and there's a bridge not too far in Yuma as well. But so there's a train track and there's a bridge not too far in Yuma from where the women's shelter is and that's where me and Pellucci would go and get high.

Speaker 1: 9:21

You're always able to find somebody to get a little bit of stash. But one of the people I was able to get stash from was in that park and he was with his dog and he called himself red and he hopped trains, and so red would get me a little stash. I'd go down, meet with him herself when we get a high under that bridge. Um, he probably slept under there sometimes, but he literally uh, so that's, he ran dope on those fucking trains. That's what he did did He'd pick up like pot a bunch of pot in Oregon, and then him and his dog would jump on them trains, find ones. He knew all the schedules and which ones he could hop on and which ones he couldn't, and then drive it to like New York and sell it. Shit like that. It was crazy.

Speaker 1: 10:06

But so we get talking and I'm like, yeah, I'm going to Mexico. But, um, so we get talking and I'm like, yeah, I'm going to Mexico, I'm going to go with you and I I don't want to get caught at the border. I'm very um strict on making sure we have nothing in the car going across the border. But by the time we get across the border, um, I'm going to if you're on, um TikTok, I'm sorry You're going to have to hear this again. So I got shook down by a cartel member that's a border agent, essentially at the border. So we did stop and Red Dog ended up staying in the car. I had to go with Pellucci and his dog, which absolutely sucked, but anyway okay. So his dog was kind of mean and didn't like pollutes. He was kind of stressed.

Speaker 1: 10:58

But so I'm inside getting the stuff that I need for the car to get down, because you've got to show you have insurance, you've got to get permission, you're on a visitor. They can give you one day, zero days or up to six months. And so this guy's like, what are you doing here? I'm like, well, me and my friend are just going to check it out, see if it's someplace that we want to move back to, and maybe you know live. And he's like, okay, well, you know, you can't leave that car here, you can't just live here. You can't just live here, you can't just stay. You know that, right, I can give you one day. I can give you no days. I can give you six months. I'm like, yeah, yeah, I know, I know, and we don't. I'm not intending on staying. If I'm, I'm following the rules, it's mexico, I'm following your rules, whatever you say.

Speaker 1: 11:43

He's like, okay, well, in that case, um, I just started selling this taco sauce. And he's like if you bought some, I would be very happy, and if I'm happy, I'm more inclined to give you six months. I'm like, okay, I'll buy the taco sauce. And then he's like you know what would make me really, really happy. His friend was selling honey. And, yes, that's really, it was simply taco sauce and honey.

Speaker 1: 12:09

Maybe he's trying to leave the gangs and cartels, I don't know, but so I bought those things. I paid him. I think they were like 20 bucks, 20 bucks each, something like that. People were also like how much were they? It wasn't a huge shakedown. I was not standing up to these people. He had my life in his hands. I have pissed off the Deep State, the Freemasons. I'm just out here trying to fucking survive In the process there's.

Speaker 1: 12:43

I'm not arguing with the border guy, so A lot of people on TikTok are like that's corruption. Yeah, I know, I know, I'll tell you where he is and you can go find him. Alright, um, um. But so then me and red get past there, we get down to mexicali, we stop, um, find a bunch of pot there, um, but I I thought we were red was getting it, because this is what he does, remember, he? And so he's like no, I'll get somewhere in mexico. Now I'm like, all right, I could get high, um, and so he goes, and then he comes back and I think he just gets us something to smoke and we're smoking it and I don't know that there's checkpoints all the way down. I mean, I've read that there could be, but we just got from Mexicali. It's not that far right, checkpoints could be down farther.

Speaker 1: 13:35

But so we're getting high and then, sure as shit, there's a fucking check mark or uh checkpoint where they check all of your passports, all of your, make sure that you got stamped correctly, paid the guy for his, um, hot sauce and fucking honey and um, this is insane man. But so they go through everything. They can smell the pot we just smoked, um. And they go through the van. I'm like I don't have it because I am clean. I know for a fact I'm clean. But then they get to his bag and he has a shit load of baggies in there, just a shit ton of baggies.

Speaker 1: 14:15

And the guy's like and they don't speak much english at that checkpoint he's like trying to ask me what's going on here, like I don't know, that's his fucking shit. I don't know, I have no idea. And so he talks to him. I don't know if he bribes him or what happens, but we end up getting to go a little bit farther. But it causes a huge fight and I'm like dude, I'm sorry, I'm not there. I'm sorry, I'm not. There's going to be more checkpoints and we're not in this, so we ain't in this together. So he got out with his dog and took a train back into the US. Now I followed his YouTube page for a little while and it looked like he got busted with pot coming back into the US, but I don't think they did anything to him. He obviously knows how to ride the rails and get away with that shit, even through countries.

Speaker 1: 15:03

But so from that point on it was just me and Pellucci and at the top it was fine. It's actually a really beautiful. There are some areas that have like Fred Flintstone rocks and things like that coming through there. It's scary in that you don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. You pop a tire, you don't know where the next gas station is. You hear about the cartel taking people off, there's things like that. But there was only one time that I felt a little bit scared going down there and it was just where I parked and I don't know, maybe the people that were coming in were trying to get closer to the light, but it felt like they were trying to block me in a little bit. So I just drove farther down the road. It was no big deal.

Speaker 1: 15:52

But when I got into Cabo so I make it all the way down, we take our own pace. Like I said, really beautiful, no problems. Be'm on gas stations, make sure you gas up every single time, every single time. Don't fuck around with that part going through there. But other than that, it was fine at the time. I don't think I would do it now because, um, after covid, the cartel is the makeup makeup of Baja and Baja Sur and Baja California is a lot different. I can't speak on all of Mexico, but I can speak on that, and so I don't know that I would do it now. But it was okay then.

Speaker 1: 16:34

But when I got into Cabo, and I don't know if Patty I don't know if patty, I'm sure she's part of him because her husband's got to be a mason. He's a sheriff. He would never help me. Um, he's obviously part of the fusion center. I know that now, um, and she always gaslit me on a lot of shit, but at this point that's remember who I had gone to mexico with the first time and so, um, I'm asking her all kinds of questions.

Speaker 1: 17:00

So when I get into cabo, like it's spring break and it's an intense spring break everything's full, so there's not like an airbnb and it's hotter than fuck. Drunk people everywhere, um, expensive, way more expensive than any of the other part of the trip down has been um, and so I'm like I don't know what I'm gonna do, and so I call patty and she's like um call carlos, his the name's charlie. Well, it's probably carlos, but everybody who knows him calls him charlie, who truly knows it. But she's like call carlos at cabo jacks and ask him if you can stay out back, um. And I'm like, okay, thank you. And so I call hey, is Carlos there? He's like, yeah, patty said you were going to call. Yeah, it's fine for you, you can stay out there. But my aunt and uncle are coming and they're going to be here for a couple days. And they turns out they paid for Cabo Jack's.

Speaker 1: 17:55

Charlie did not, charlie runs it, owns it, but somebody else has the papers on that. Um, who knows at this point. But at that time his aunt and uncle did and was like I don't know that they'll be okay with that. Um, so can you wait a couple days? And I'm like, yeah, whatever, I'll find somewhere to just sleep. Um, I've done it before in this van, not a problem, um. But then he ends up calling me back and saying no, I talked to him and it's fine, and so I go meet charlie and meet his aunt and uncle, and no fucking shit if they're not from washington state, um. So I did dui stuff. We had 1-800-dui-way um, I founded that and then ended up selling the name to brad. You can't sell law office, but you can sell the name, but so anyway, um.

Speaker 1: 18:42

But whenever my clients got pulled over on the side of the road, their cars got towed and it was usually a pretty specified list of the people they'd you know they were getting paid. I'm sure use these people and they'll give you a kickback, but so anyway, no shit if, um, after we're and we're getting drunk, there's a lot of cocaine flies around there getting high as a kite and fuck when in Rome, you know how I stayed alive a lot of times when, in Rome, do as the Romans man, so I'm doing as the Romans. But, as it turns out, these Romans are from my area and they are the tool company that has told most of my clients and I'm like, holy shit. I'm like, well, so what's going on with that? And they're like, no, no, we pissed him off at one point too. We, we're good, and so they came after us too, and so that's when I started learning. No, it was. That's what I'm like. Is it Mason's, is it? I still didn't know.

Speaker 1: 19:46

There was a name called the fusion center, but after talking to these guys, um, and their experience and what they went through, it was way too similar um to it was clear. There was a training book and so pretty soon I'm going to find the training book. Um, man, cabo Jack's probably. I'll just tell you about that real quick and then, um, we'll start after Cabo Jacks. Actually, you know what I'm not gonna. Um, we'll start up at Cabo Jacks here in a few minutes. Cabo Jacks was so much fun. I learned how to I actually karaoke there. For years People asked me to karaoke. I'm like I ain't doing that. Fuck it. So much fun at Cabo Jacks. Again, it looked a lot like um a problem, but for me, uh, it wasn't. It wasn't a problem. So I'm Heidi and this is a surviving changes podcast. Thanks for being on this journey with me.